the butterfly effect..

its that idea that a small change in something creates a changing effect on all other things that is multiplied...and before you know it that little change is the reason of one big phenomena...

in the movie...he kept on rewinding his life changing one bit of it everytime. and with that one could not believe how much his future had been altered...

an article said that the idea of butterfly effect is an exageration of relating events to one another... putting so much meaning on things...and finding fault and blaming you fate to others...

watever.

i'm feeling the butterfly effect...i'm trying to change some small things i was used to...for the better? i'm not sure...but for the sake of feeling in control and deciding to be seen differently...i felt i was so predictable that i'm losing significance on earth...therefore i decided to change...just some small things...but lo and behold...one small difference brings me problems i dont even want to think about...and people are getting too affected that they blame me...they want the old me...i dont want the old me...

its that chain reaction of things that disturbs the equilibrium of some people...it really affects something else too much...maybe because we are inter-related...

its hard...a lot of times i scrap the changes and go back to what i used to be...just because i'm feeling guilty for destabilizing other peoples lives...just because people would never get used to that change...just because people needs the old me...

i might forever be a person for others...because i could never afford to live for myself at the expense of others happiness...the happiness of others always comes first...and i hope they appreciate that...because sometimes...i dont feel that i sacrifice things for the right reasons...and i end up hurting inside...

the butterfly effect...it exists...