im proud of me today...=)

very, very busy day today...been to sooo many places and accomplished relatively a lot, considering that i do almost nothing useful with my time...hehe...except read, and work pla. so, thats about two hours...haha...

but i forgot...didn't do any job hunting thingy this week...so tamad..."finding work burnout" if there is such a term...hehe...but i owe my parents to still try lookin for a job they would like...after all, i owe them my education...sort of...

i just realized today...i missed studying...hehe...all those worries about exams and grades...and the library!...i miss the library...i love the library now...but i love everything about up more ofcourse...

i was also ms. brave today...trying to revive my beaten ego...hehe...trying to regain my spirit...and although a lot of people had been saying i changed...and seemingly they're not liking the new me...im still proud of what i am now...i need to be a little tough...just now...when i'm okay, i promise to bring my sweet old self back...haaaayyyy...

...i learned that sometimes you have to forget how painful it is to hurt the one's you love. for both of you to feel the reality of things...