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valentines fever
Posted by adp
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9:40 PM
didn't want to feel bitter on valentines...though i am still single and unattached...what's new? actually i'm getting use to it...i guess i'm getting over the kilig days...i'm turning to a boring, bitter old maid...haha...
decided to be a thoughtful girlfriend today...since i dont have a boyfriend to spoil...id rather make someone feel loved...realized too late that i'm overdoing it...hehe...eniweis, i made my friends happy...so, mission accomplished...
which makes me realize...if i was a guy would i be as doting as i am?...grabe cguro ako...on the point of being scarily over...hehe...things are never simple with me...they have to be elaborate...i wonder if there are guys like me...maybe...but most sensitive guys i know are chickboy and very metrosexual yet sexist...
after all those flowers, chocolates and cards chuva with friends...i planned to have a date with my pseudo boyfriend who happens to be an up and coming film star...hehe, my dreamboy...unfortunately late ang screening so my friend which willingly went with me to the cinema was spared the torture to watch my type of movie...hehe ulit...we watched phantom instead...which was a love story...so it was okay with me...i liked the movie even...
you could never be completely happy in a day. something is bound to get wrong...and my day ended sadly unfortunately...why?...because i chose to torture myself with thoughts i should not be thinking of...hate myself for making myself sad...
...but its my choice still...and i would fight these feelings of anger and sadness...i owe myself happiness...that is the least i deserve...that is what i now seek...
decided to be a thoughtful girlfriend today...since i dont have a boyfriend to spoil...id rather make someone feel loved...realized too late that i'm overdoing it...hehe...eniweis, i made my friends happy...so, mission accomplished...
which makes me realize...if i was a guy would i be as doting as i am?...grabe cguro ako...on the point of being scarily over...hehe...things are never simple with me...they have to be elaborate...i wonder if there are guys like me...maybe...but most sensitive guys i know are chickboy and very metrosexual yet sexist...
after all those flowers, chocolates and cards chuva with friends...i planned to have a date with my pseudo boyfriend who happens to be an up and coming film star...hehe, my dreamboy...unfortunately late ang screening so my friend which willingly went with me to the cinema was spared the torture to watch my type of movie...hehe ulit...we watched phantom instead...which was a love story...so it was okay with me...i liked the movie even...
you could never be completely happy in a day. something is bound to get wrong...and my day ended sadly unfortunately...why?...because i chose to torture myself with thoughts i should not be thinking of...hate myself for making myself sad...
...but its my choice still...and i would fight these feelings of anger and sadness...i owe myself happiness...that is the least i deserve...that is what i now seek...
