depressing math...

to date i can (or not) only boast of being out and about in metro manila...or NCR per se...that includes what they now term as the greater manila area...

approximately i have walked on 636 km2 of land

...so?

it hit me just now (and thus i did a little research)...that i had seen approximately 0.5% of the Philippines! whew!...wah! that includes the provinces i've been to...which didn't actually add much to land area i scoped rather added minutely due to the land area i travelled to reach my destination...

...and now the worse part

asia having a share of 44 million km2 of the world's land area only makes me more miserable...i've been to 0.0035% of asia...wah!

...and the worst?
ive been to 0.001% of the earth...how pathetic could that be?

...and so now...i have the extreme urge to throw caution to the wind and go places...but at present i can do that only in my dreams...sadly...

way back, i had simple dreams...i want to think i still have the same ones...but the world, seems to be taunting me to want more...but my inner self (or my idiot side, as what most would think of me) battles to be content...

i know, and i've always been told that i have greatness in me...which they perceive that i sadly deny...

i've soul-searched for a year due to a broken heart...and since then i started to trust fate, faith and god...i believed i found the answers to lots of my life questions...broken heart, long forgotten...the lessons i learned still remains...or so i guess...

and then after two years...I'm questioned again of what i really want...
just because i browse...i listened...thus i despair...

i desperately need to hear only two voices...my own heart and a much greater one's heart...but either fear or stubbornness is making me stall...

...i am so longing for that sacred place...when everything else is always ok...