bday post!

It's day after my bday but I'm still doing this bday post. haha. Pic above is how I wished it would be...and actually it felt I got my wish...All those greetings and people who remembered made me feel I had a great party. I actually had a great day. Though initial plan didn't push through...again...I think I did everything right... :)

There were emo moments I admit. I refuse to be sad on any birthday, but circumstances of course make such feelings resurface...Ha! but the male gene in me still know how to be tough, lols. First, this year I truly appreciate the fact that birthdays are tribute to the creator God and ofcourse our parents. For how can we exist if they didn't will it right? Thus emo moment...starts with dad doing his best to greet me...and talking about my plans for the day...which would be entirely different if only he could drive me to some place again...And then there's mom who I know felt bad always dwelling on how much things change...and this past few days sensing her being tired and drained...And then there's moment with God, mix emotions of gratitude and prayer and hope and questions....And then there's age...which never mind...haha...just numbers you know...

I did everything on my to do list...I actually was able to do much more. And my day had been so inspirational...I learned about Andre...about what my age meant to jesus...about how beautiful a chapel could be...about how much more I could do...etc...

Since it again fell on a weekday, I get to celebrate alone...which I don't mind and I actually prefer ironically...because i get to spend time with myself and do things I really want to do...all about just me...the selfish me...haha...I actually have simple joys...a party if it happens will totally not be me...haha...And I plan to do much more to honor my new year...I hope I don't forget and I still get to do...I want to give gifts to others, something this time i have the avenue to do so...

In previous years...the concept of good health is bordering abstract to me...just because I had no experience yet with otherwise case... But this year, it's my only wish...Renewed health for my dad, just so he could be more comfortable. And for my mom, for she is extremely impt as support. And for me, for how can I be of more help if I'd be sickly...It's hard not to worry about what ifs...I actually have a strong amount of trust...but sometimes you can't help but wish that everything's going for the better...And it will...for all the time it's actually a matter of perception.

I'm glad I had a great 2010. For i wouldn't be this ME if not for the things that has been. Hopefully my 2011 would just be as great. What aging teaches me is to deal with change. And I can sense I have to experience a lot. So, I better deal with it. haha. Wanting to be better is entirely different from Being better...I hope I get to do the Being part this time.

I'm going to do those balloons someday...haha